Claress Jamilla

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Sounds perfect Wahhhh, I don’t wanna

my come BACK

Hello Tumblr world! it’s been a year I guess since I posted some “text” in here, well your gurl got busy with some adulting stuffs. To update, I am already employed but not on a very promising status but yeah I’m an employee now. 

The reason why I came back is because I just want to share THINGS about how I find adulting stage fun, serious, weird and difficult.

It was FUN since you got your own means of generating income, you can buy what you want without informing your parents since it is YOUR OWN money. You are the one who truly manages your finances, how you save and spend.

It was SERIOUS, there were a lot of times wherein I doubted myself. At the age of 22 I became aware of this life threatening RAT RACE, working for 8 hours a day, 5 days a week (sometimes 7 days, depending on my travel schedule and the saturdays and sundays are not compensated) and maybe if I can’t escape that maze maybe I’ll work for more than 75 % of my life years.

 It was WEIRD, many adults are weird.

and yes Adulting is very DIFFICULT. 

There’s this saying “with a great power comes with great responsibility” 

Super True, as I said earlier it was Fun since you have your own income you too will have your own BILLS. House Rent, Electric, Water Bill, foods, onions garlic EVERYTHING! Cooking, washing clothes and many many more things! I am no longer at the comfort of my home! It was difficult because you’ll ask yourself if you’re still happy and I hope that you are :)

Well that’s it for today!

Good Morning!

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Here goes a photo to motivate thy self. ❤

It’s been a year since I graduated college. At that moment I had plans regards the future ahead. Right after I put my foot out of the stage there have been job offers for me. My professor wanted me to be her researcher while the president of our school offered me a teaching post (but I needed first to undergo the masteral course) but I decided to decline their offers firsthand.

Before the graduation I already think too hard for the plans for me, I actually thought it would go so smooth but the real world surprised me, or should I say I’m not ready for it?

I spent my summer vacation freely cause for some reason I’d love to lessen the tension from the upcoming exams. Then I took the review with my ates. I took seriously the reviews since it really is important for us. I spent all day to study, read and to familiarize the terms that are necessarily for the exams, I found out that there’s too many things I don’t know.

The confidence I have started to fade, realizing that I have lack too many. Thinking how on earth I graduated Magna Cum Laude with just this handful of knowledge, then it hit me I needed to work harder. Fortunately we passed the examination, but I still have doubts with myself. “Why can’t I landed on top, atleast at number 10?!” hahaha but still I’m happy thay my ates passed the exams too and that gave me the secure feeling that I’ve done nice in my part of reviewing them.

Now I’m applying for a government position and it’s been 5 months of waiting, sometimes I wanted to give up but something is cheering me up, it was myself saying that I can do it and the best is yet to come.

So claress, hang on there and everyting will be fine! Fighting!

- Claress S. Jamilla, RFT

You are Beautiful.

I already mentioned before we do have our own individual qualities so we ought to not compare ourselves from others. Beauty does not only resides in appearances but it takes its most essential place at our hearts.

I “was” *claiming it as past tense and succeeded in healing my insecurities * once a girl who dreams for a perfectly shaped body, flawless and clear skin, white complexion and perfectly aligned teeth. Funny how I sound so shallow but that really does describe how insecured I am since all that mentions were the opposite of what I have. Before, I really think that I can catch up with this airy dreams of mine. I tried different whitening soaps, lotions, body wash and done some dieting plan. Yep I lose weight and get some fair skin but I really never feel happy about it, why? Maybe because I sensed that feeling that I am changing myself just to imitate the “standardized beauty” of our society. I thought that it was too unfair for myself, I was born aunthentic and I should be proud of that.

I decided to be just comfortable with myself and to let go of my insecurities.

I love to have a natural look, that look you have after you take a bath *this is my preference and I respect those person who loves to wear make up, it’s just make up can’t be with me*. I don’t care if my pimples can be easily seen and were not concealed, and I think it’s perfectly okay. You can be beautiful by just being yourself, although you can’t be that someone who can get so many likes and appreciations in social media but that’s okay because the right and genuine person will see your true hidden beauty.

You are beautiful.

-Claress

I think I’m healing.

Never compare yourself to anyone cause we’re all different. If you think you’re still at your not so good days (not being productive as you have imagined, not on your sunny sparkling days) it’s okay! Everyone’s got through that! It’s NORMAL! Life isn’t about you being so successful in just a snap! It take some process! And I tell you you'rehalf way there! Heads up! As I’ve always read about the individual’s timeline it really is important to wait and to just be grateful for what ever you have right now! Some people were already dreaming about what you have, just like you do ! Just be happy and always live your life up to its best!

-Claress.